Why I Carry a Fifty Pound Sack of Extra Me – Part 10

  Chapter 10 Releasing Shame and Guilt I have this dream of releasing shame and guilt before I release the weight.  In my imagination this is the only way for it to stay off.  Accepting myself as I am is not denial or a cop out or even laziness, it is the only way forward […] Read more »

Why I Carry a Fifty Pound Sack of Extra Me – Part 9

  Chapter 9.  Loving myself as I am I want to learn to love myself fully, in spite of being ‘grassata’ as the Italian man whispered to his colleague as they passed me on the street… “bella mais molto grassatta’  beautiful but too fat.  Can I see my inner beauty enough to accept my outer […] Read more »

Why I Carry a Fifty Pound Sack of Extra Me – Part 8

  Chapter 8.  The Consequences The consequences for carrying this 50 pound sack of extra me have not been consistently motivating.  They motivate me when I have to be in a bathing suit or when I’m going to see folks I haven’t seen in a while or when I think how I don’t want my […] Read more »

Why I Carry a Fifty Pound Sack of Extra Me – Part 7

  Chapter 7.  The scale doesn’t lie   The scale doesn’t lie but I don’t ask it questions that often.   Mostly the scale has delivered disappointing news.  When it delivered good news, I dreaded getting back on it to make sure all was still well and usually it wasn’t .  If I didn’t weigh myself […] Read more »

Why I Carry a Fifty Pound Sack of Extra Me – Part 6

  Chapter 6.  Did I say I love food? My love of food started in my childhood when my mother or step dad, Pappy- would make delectable foods like collard greens, hot water corn bread, fried chicken or barbecue ribs.  My love of food was reinforced by Pappy’s runs to the commissary and the sight […] Read more »

Why I Carry a Fifty Pound Sack of Extra Me – Part 5

  Chapter 5.  I am addicted to pleasure Buying art, wearing beautiful things, having my toes done, getting a massage, watching a good movie (especially with good popcorn), sharing a meal with someone I love, sleeping in, afternoon sex, enjoying an unscheduled day, finishing a project, coloring, singing, dancing, playing my ukulele, reading a good […] Read more »

Why I Carry a Fifty Pound Sack of Extra Me – Part 4

  Chapter 4.  I don’t exercise enough.   I love to sit and read.  And sit and write and sit and think and sit and work and it leaves little time to move.  I will walk most days for about 30 minutes which mostly lets me maintain my current configuration, unless we go on an […] Read more »

Why I Carry a Fifty Pound Sack of Extra Me – Part 2

  Chapter 2.  I sometimes eat mindlessly   I sometimes eat mindlessly or to tame  my mind.  My body is never as hungry as my mind is, but I feed my body anyway.  My mind says ‘what do I want’ and rather than sit in contemplation or meditation and listen for the answer, I move […] Read more »

Why I Carry a Fifty Pound Sack of Extra Me – Part 1

Chapter 1. I love food There is no impending famine to prepare for and I don’t think of my body as a sign of prosperity. I love food therefore I eat it often, pretty much whenever I want. Yes, I tend to stick to three meals a day, but I never miss one. I love […] Read more »

Provincetown Inspiration Weekend September 30 – October 2, 2016!

PIW 2016

It is my pleasure to announce that registration is now officially open for Provincetown Inspiration Weekend 2016 After 7 years and thousands of hours teaching, learning, speaking, facilitating and coaching in alignment with my understanding of Spiritual Principal, I have been given the designation of ordained minister with “The Centers for Spiritual Living”, teaching the […] Read more »